Random can be fun, right?

Things on my mind just now:

*I'm desperately missing one of my best friends/now ex boyfriend of nearly 5 years. Let's call him "AJB"... but I had a hand in breaking his heart, and he entirely blames me, and will no longer acknowledge my existence. It's depressing.
*The guy I was interested in for a while, "MAG" sort of blew it. I'm no longer interested. But he doesn't seem to get that the mutual attraction has been lost. I don't know how to help him understand this without being ruthlessly mean.
*After discussing relationships with a new friend, the previous two thoughts included, she looked at me and in a very matter-of-fact tone said, "Geez Sarah, you're kind of a heartless bitch." Thanks, friend. I needed someone to tell me that. Since I'm already feeling less than great about myself thanks to, again, the previously stated thoughts... Who knows, maybe I am a heartless beezy.
*Then I think that I'm really not so heartless. That will be a whole separate post, I think...
*I think I'm slightly in love with a blue eyed tenor. He is sweet, and happy, and smart, and talented, and worthy. And gorgeous.
*I hate Diablo. And Halo. And Starcraft.
*There's a beautiful Hawaiian tenor I'm also very interested in.
*I think I have a thing for tenors.... But the two or three I can't quit thinking about are very different thank guys I've dated before. I think that's what I need :)
*I don't want to read any "graphic novels" right now. Or ever.
*I haven't talked to my best friend in over 24 hours and I really miss her. Is that pathetic?
*"Valentines Day" was awesome. I needed a chick flick....
*I amazed at how fearless I was this weekend on my snowmobiling trip. Ok, maybe not fearless, but brave. I was scared, but I did things I never thought I would do. It was fun!
*I have an ADD brain. My trains of thought are so random sometimes.

It's good to get thought listed. Hopefully I'll be able to explain more. I need to get it all out. I was recently told that I keep too much in. Maybe that's true...

Bonne nuit à toi!